ANGER KILLS

Yes, the heading of this sticks out…I’m feeling defeated and lingering anger inside is still burning from earlier today. Let me tell you the background to this story…..The other day my 7 year old son Calaeb emptied out a whole laundry detergent container in the laundry room. The thick blue liquid was all over the floor. I was highly upset at that moment and I couldn’t help but yell at my son, Why? Why? I kept saying. Soon after, this tremendous amount of guilt came over me and I just felt like I wanted to commit the worse thing imaginable to myself. I need help and inside of me it was yelling out for help. Today. Same thing happened only that it was all over the guest bathroom. I was initially upset and wanted to yell again but I fought it. I fought the urge to show this ugly side of me. Inside I was a wreck and I had to step away for a minute. I took my son away from the situation and I used the skill “one-minded” towards cleaning up the floor. For those of you familiar with DBT, the one-minded skill is basically focusing only on the task at hand and being the best at it. As I write this blog, yes anger does kill, but it’s not me it kills…it can slowly kill the relationship you have with your kids if you let it.

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